From a young age I knew I was different. The teachers called me stupid and wouldn't help when I asked. They failed my assignments or got low grades despite putting all my energy and heart into the work. I experience the world differently, feel deeply, see the bigger picture, can problem solve, and see links of things. I have a fantastic imagination, and have a big heart yet me and writing abilities were never the best of friends.
At school I never knew how to structure sentences correctly; my grammar was terrible and spelling - well that's another story. I remember I went to a teacher once and asked for help. "Please tell me what I am doing wrong, and I will correct it." She told me to stop wasting her time. Thankfully I had a wonderful teacher called Mrs Logan who was the one teacher who believed in me. Although dyslexia wasn't a term used at the time and I wasn't diagnosed - she saw beyond my attempts of writing and poor exam results and really supported and encouraged me to excel and my grades improved. For that, I am forever grateful. One person can make a difference in the world.
THE SHAME OF DYSLEXIA HELD ME BACK
Shame was a big part of my working life and was very anxious my boss and peers would discover I can't spell or write correctly. I choose jobs that were well below my capacity and became deeply unhappy. Even a couple of years ago training to be a counsellor or psychotherapist the tutors (who were also therapist themselves) were not very supportive. One tutor even laughed at me in front of my peers about my dyslexia.
The shame returned. I lacked confidence and worried about being judged not good enough or worthy enough to write.
WHAT I LEARNT ABOUT BEING DYSLEXIC
The last experience was a turning point for me. I learnt that no one could take my power from me and I decided I was never going to be shamed again for being who I am. I was going to stop playing the victim of being dyslexic. I was never going to be embarrassed again for not having the perfect grammar or not able to spell.
I realised I was focussing too much on what others said / or may say about my writing and this disconnect me from who I am, my heart, vision and creativity. There are much more important things to focus my energy on. I started writing blogs, and I still do have typos and my writing is not grammatically correct. I am really okay with it as my message, heart, vision and creativity are more important.
A few months ago I started working with Jenny Andersson, a branding expert, and she encouraged me to write ebooks for my website which I am in the process of writing two (how to create a healthy and happy sex life and a book on porn addiction). I still struggle with my writing at times but I am no longer held back by shame or lack of confidence. Jenny has given me very useful feedback on what I need to improve, and it was essential to realise that it is okay to ask for additional support.
WRITING FROM THE HEART
My writing is an expression of me and is from my heart and core. I am getting more and more confident in putting my written world out in the world. It's been a journey but one that is worth it.
I have a song in my heart, and it is expressed through my written word.
Being dyslexic helps me write more from my heart rather than my rational mind. To see more of my writing from my heart you can visit my facebook coaching page
ADVICE TO OTHER DYSLEXIC WRITERS
Whether it's your blog, writing a book or assignment at university, do not let dyslexia hold you back. There are many famous dyslexic successful writers - from Agatha Christies to Fannie Flagg who is the best known as the author of Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Café (one of my favourite movies).
I truly believe that we need to heal some of the shame and judgement about being dyslexic. For me, it's a gift, and I wouldn't change it for anything.
Here are some of my tips for writing (which I also follow when I am writing)
It's time to stop hiding behind being dyslexic (I can say this as this is what I use to do!). Let go of your fears and just write. It's time to let your light shine as the world is waiting on your gifts.
Do you have any other writing suggestions to add to my list - please add them in the comments section as I would love to read them.
Linda Connors is a London Hypnotherapist who also happens to be dyslexic. This is a gift as Linda is empathic, creative, able to see the bigger picture and see the links of what is happening in your past and inner world to find solutions and create change in your life.